So many things have been changing in my life. It is a little overwhelming. How does the saying go? "Change is good". Really? I don't see how all change is good. I have been so stressed from getting used to all these changes. Work...what can I say. It sucks! I mean really sucks. I was so excited to become a teacher. Moving and changing my life I don't even know if it is really worth it. On top of coming into a situation that is really bad, no support, organization, structure, accountability for the students behaviors and actions, I have so many other things I have been asked to do. I think I might have gray hair by the end of the school year. Two of my classes make me want to quit. I just started and these students are horrible. I don't know what I am going to do at the end of the year. I can stay at the school I am at right now, go to another school in the district or leave all together. I know...I should be happy I even have a job, but is it enough to have a job even if I am miserable. I mean really miserable.
Change is good, right?? I guess I can say that it can't get much worse than this. I mean it could, but I don't think I could bare it if it did. Maybe all these changes are too much; too overwhelming. Maybe if I didn't move thousands of miles away from my family and friends I would be able to handle my work life. Maybe it wouldn't be such a big deal. I guess I'll never know. What I do know is that when things change in life, it usually sucks and is not for the better; at least with my luck. I guess if my life where a movie now it would be like a "Dangerous Minds" or "Freedom Writers" movie except without all the metamorphosis of the classes or characters. The students would not change, the situation would not change. You are just trying to get through the situation with your sanity, standards, and hopefulness of having done something good and right.
