Thoughts on Writing a Paper

I'm so bad at starting a paper. For some reason when I sit down to write I feel like I'm back in english class writing a paper, trying to figure out what to say first. Even though this is different than that it is a little difficult for me to figure out what to write. However, it always seems like when I do start writing, my paper always goes in a different direction of what I say at the beginning and I end up having to rewrite it.

If only life was like that. It would be awsome if we could rewrite things that we've done in our lives that we just didn't expect to do, or that we didn't want to go in a certain direction. I wish I could erase the things I wish I hadn't done and put something I liked better in it's place. Like actually studying for physics and homeostasis. Or transfering schools when I had the chance. Actually looking at different colleges rather than choosing one with no regard to all others, and not dating that one person I knew I shouldn't have. I wonder how my story would be different and how much easier it would be to finish writing it. But now I have to struggle with what I have written in the past and hope that it all makes sense in the end.