The Movies Lie

The thing I hate most about movies is that the guy always makes a big gesture to win back the girl in the end. What is up with that? I hate that. First of all the movies, lately, have a man whore that goes around sleeping with any and every girl they see. Of coarse they have a sweet female friend that likes them. Once she is moving on and they man feels threatened they will lose her, what a surprise, they finally realize that they can't live without her. Of coarse they make some big romantic gesture and she accepts and they end up together. Now this scenario has so many things wrong with it. Why do they make all the guys such big sluts and the girls completely the opposite. Now personally, I would not not want to be with a guy that has slept with half the city of New York, its disgusting, and how is it that none of the women in the movie see that. Why can't the guy be someone that doesn't sleep around every night of the week? And why can't the girls be less angels? It's kind of like "Pillow talk". While I do like this movie it gets old.

Another huge flaw is that guys do not ever make a big romantic gesture in real life. This is the biggest flaw, because this has been a recurring theme since I can remember, and I'm sure longer than that. This is were girls get totally screwed. Women are tricked, from the time they are young girls, into believing that this kind of stuff happens all the time, that it is natural. How many girls imagine that when they actually find the love of their life that even if things go bad the man will realize the huge mistake he made and will make some kind of big romantic gesture to win you back. But this never happens. That is the movies, it is not real life. And yet because that is what we grow up watching we are brainwashed into believing that it really could happen, and keep that hope going. What a joke, like a guy is really going to admit that he made a huge mistake and try to get you back. This is the worst lie from movies, because it screws with our heads and hearts.

I wish the movies told more of the truth. The guy may have made a huge mistake, but he does not go back to the girl. The girl is changed forever and may not ever feel the same way about another guy as the first. The guy finds someone else and the girl finds someone else, but it is not the same and never will be. I like the ending of "Becoming Jane", because I feel like this is more likely to happen. The guy marries and has children, and the girl never settles for anything less than what she once felt for him, she never gets married. I find it super annoying that movies are still brainwashing girls to believe that men could actually behave in such romantic ways. I can't believe how easy it is to let crap like this make you believe it could happen in real life.

Is this going to be it?

I really want to learn how to sail. It would be so awesome to one day own a sail boat and actually be able to go out and sail. I think it would be really cool to just be able to go out in the ocean sailing. Fortunately, there are sailing lessons in the city. I think my sister and I am going to take lessons. At least, when there is more of a cash flow going on. I also want to take photography classes. I've always been interested in photography. It started in high school, but we did not have any classes for that. I would have to be able to buy a good camera, though, and those cost lots of mula. One day, hopefully soon, I'll be able to get a camera and take a class. It would be pretty cool. But first I have to finish grad school and get a job. Hopefully that won't be too difficult.

It seems like there is so much I want to do. I feel like I need to keep doing new things to not get board. I want to learn so much and do so much. I don't want to be stuck. Sometimes it seems like getting my master's degree and becoming a teacher is not going to be enough. I want more, I want to do more, learn more. I want to be good at more than just teaching. I'm afraid that teaching will not be enough to keep me happy. I've been working hard towards becoming a teacher for such a long time. I'm afraid that when I'm done I'm going to be like "That's it, there is nothing else?" I'm going to only be doing this for the rest of my life? What about all my other interests and dreams? Do those just go away? Or someday will I wish I did something else? So many questions, so many worries, and I haven't even started yet.

Running into Someone You Knew

It is so weird running into someone you knew years ago that you have not seen in a long time. It seems like the worst is when someone you went to high school with appears in front of you, and you wish you had the power of invisibility. Would that be awesome! I mean, you would never have to see anyone you did want to ever again. You could simply disappear and not have to deal with being polite. I hate that, and that person is just as snobby and self absorbed as they were in high school. I find myself spacing out, making to do lists, wishing the agonizing situation would pass quickly. Then there is the awkward silence when that person stops talking and you have nothing to say back to them because you were thinking about what you were going to eat for dinner, or how much laundry you have to do. And of coarse you always have to end the conversation with, "We should get together sometime". As if that would ever happen. Even if I wanted to see you again, you don't want to see me again, and you don't have to fake it.

And sometimes it's a good surprise... The person is actually someone that you would want to talk to. And when you do, you converse it's more than you ever did when you saw them consistently. Those are definitely my favorite. When you see someone that you were not necessarily friends with before but you find that you really could be now. And who knows, maybe more...